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06 June 2014 @ 02:39 am
[sticky post] hiatus!  

winter blossom is ongoing

scratch any cynic and you will find a disappointed idealist.

dear fandom, i am disillusioned.

i always thought livejournal was a place for sharing ideas and creativity. i've made numerous respected and cherished friends through reading and writing fiction over the years. and the process of sharing, inspiring and learning from one another was always what made the writing process so enjoyable.

i'm saddened to say that this year i decided to embark on a personal challenge. i wrote something that had been stewing in my head for sometime, things that were uncomfortable, challenging but frankly, exciting to write. i had never toyed with such a different narrative, or such dark themes before.

honestly, i don't expect any of my work to be well received by anyone. but the offensive comments, drama, negativity and small mindedness i have encountered have been entirely disappointing. i believe strongly in one's freedom to free expression; and similarly, i believe there is no excuse to infringe on someone's desires to write what they want to.

i understand we may not always agree on topics, but we can choose to be tactful, kind and open-minded to things we ourselves do not always appreciate or understand.

i will continue to write because i enjoy it and because i write only for myself.

i have a few pieces in the works that i would like to finish. winter blossom being one of them.

Jo-Anne Liguitar_girl_z on June 6th, 2014 11:33 am (UTC)
Oh no...and here I was super excited for the new chapter of Winter Blossoms...only to find that I can no longer read it :(

But anyways, I respect your decision, and can only say that you shouldn't let those small-minded people affect your desire to write. There are so many readers who love what you do :)
charmaine08charmaine08 on June 6th, 2014 12:20 pm (UTC)
ahhh I kind of like Winter Blossoms and was waiting for the last two chapters.
I especially love the way you wrote the characters of Jaejoong and Yunho in that story.
It all seems very realistic. I read some comments for the latest chapters and realized many people couldnt stomach the idea of Yunho raping Jaejoong and stuff but it would seem even more ridiculous if you write Yunho softening towards Jaejoong and falling in love with him when he just met the latter for a day.
Furthermore, non consensual intercourse during war is not an uncommon occurrence. I'm not saying its a right thing to do, in case some other people might fire me for saying this, just that a war plot will not be a good plot without these dark elements in it.
Sorry for my ranting, heh. I respect your decision to put this story on hiatus but I will be waiting for the day you come back to complete Winter Blossoms. :) :)
~ 9095moi_toujours on June 6th, 2014 01:12 pm (UTC)
i'm going to miss you so much T______T but people are always going to talk shit about the things they don't like or aren't close to their ideal ideas >< so don't feel disappointed by that because you have your own ideas and you can't please everyone <3
RottenLuvrottenluv on June 6th, 2014 01:28 pm (UTC)
I've loved your stories and beautiful writing style, and thank you for giving so much! Too bad the critics just don't go away quietly, you're not in the business of writing what they want, sheeesh! Take care!
songbird52317songbird52317 on June 6th, 2014 10:05 pm (UTC)
I am sorry you are going on hiatus when I have relatively recently found your excellent fics and there are many of them I have yet to read. It is distressing when readers decide to comment negatively and meanly. Thankfully I have yet to experience that with my own writing. I think the more popular your writing the more likely it is to attract negativity. I will be looking forward to you coming off hiatus.
orangeholicorangeholic on June 7th, 2014 01:47 pm (UTC)
I just want you to know that for me none of your fics was bad or crossed the line of decency. I wish you all the best, my dear favourite author who made me cry ♥
katie3863katie3863 on June 7th, 2014 05:01 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry that you had a bad experience. Hopefully one day you will feel like writing again. I really like your stories.
hitomi2oo7hitomi2oo7 on June 7th, 2014 10:04 pm (UTC)
I was so busy with work and finally found time to visit LJ and seen the part 8 updated of winter blossom but I could not read it (T_T)
I can't even explain how disappointed I am right now since I read & commented on the story from the start...
Also ppl that were rude to you should have their comments get deleted or more like ignored coz if they didn't like any part of the story they could always skip it lol I mean if you warned your readers that the update contains rape scenes (with which not every fan is OK with) I don't see the problem...
Anyways I will forever feel sad for not getting to know what happened next in the story... but I will respect your decision.
Hope things will get better~^^
deuxjuillet5deuxjuillet5 on June 8th, 2014 12:52 pm (UTC)
Nooooo!!!!!! don't~ I have only read this recently and i'm hook pls.. don't go hiatus just ignore those who can't appreciate they can go and be doomed. XDDDD
deuxjuillet5deuxjuillet5 on June 10th, 2014 01:49 pm (UTC)
Waaah!!! I just read this fic and then when i will read it again it was friend locked already~~~ can I continue reading this over and over? please add me as friend~ juseyo~ <3
Marielunamarieluna on June 12th, 2014 12:38 pm (UTC)
Ow... I'm sorry to hear about what happened, but rest assured I'm one fo your loyal (if sometimes silent) fans. And I'd really like to keep on reading your works. Would you friend me back please?
hellokittyjyjhellokittyjyj on June 13th, 2014 01:44 pm (UTC)
hi, can i get access to chapter 8 please?
unfortunately i wasnt able to read it before it was friend locked
i havent been on live journal for a few weeks and trying to catch up on my fics now.
please help. thanks.
nancy_boy_88nancy_boy_88 on June 14th, 2014 12:09 am (UTC)
I have no idea what happen... i read your fic and never felt it was something scandalous
is shocking
Im sorry it happen and I would really like to continue reading your stories if possible and chapter 8
thank you
nicolemarie2014nicolemarie2014 on June 16th, 2014 08:46 am (UTC)
Hi am really sorry for what happen but I liked your writing and never found it offensive I hope you continue writing you have talent you had me hooked since the first chapter :) please add me as a friend I would really like to continue reading winter blossom
rovenusrovenus on June 16th, 2014 03:42 pm (UTC)
hi i'm a new reader of ur stories and i would love the oppurtunity to read them . i hope you would consider adding me. i think u've added me recently but when i tried accessing ur stories i cant access them and now i'm no t ur friend again so i hope u wouldnt mind adding me again. thanks.
Esperau_astronomer on June 17th, 2014 09:51 pm (UTC)
I do not read fics very often but your story has caught my attention. It is unfortunate that others cannot appreciate your creation but then again, their loss. I would like to continue following your fic please.
orangeholicorangeholic on June 18th, 2014 01:18 am (UTC)
Hi, if it's okay I would like to read chapter 8 :)
themissinvisiblthemissinvisibl on June 20th, 2014 06:59 pm (UTC)
hi i'm a new reader and just discoverd your writings just to find that you f-locked them. i respect your decision althought i would really like to read your fics. i just wanted to say that maybe you shouldn't care what other people say as long as you like what you are writing and doing what makes you happy.
Invisibly restlessfffiend on June 21st, 2014 01:58 am (UTC)
Ahhhhh, i was gonna reread your fics then found out that you've locked them TT
Invisibly restlessfffiend on June 21st, 2014 02:03 am (UTC)
And please don't mind those people too... I don't know what happened or why your fic is particularly picked on, I mean non-con/dub-con isn't exactly unusual in fanfic, and this is just fanfiction anyway.
milkychococreammilkychococream on June 21st, 2014 06:18 am (UTC)
Hi! I've just found your fic and I'm really excited to read it. I'm a pretty open minded person despite my asian background so can you give me access to your winter blossom?

Edited at 2014-06-21 06:23 am (UTC)
demonshide7demonshide7 on June 22nd, 2014 01:04 am (UTC)
Hello. Please add me. I would love to read your fics.
annette89annette89 on June 22nd, 2014 08:43 am (UTC)
I think people who criticize others works without a real reason, simply doesn't have a life, you shouldn't mind them, just pity them, they have a sad life. I agree with you, we can't be loved by everyone, but if someone can't stand us can simply ignore us and go on with their life, if they begin bad mouthing, they really have nothing better to do... Cheer up, there are lots of people who love your writing. I'm one of them, it would be a pleasure to keep reading your fics. I'm adding you, I hope you are going to add me back. Thank you! Fighting!
yappariyunhoyappariyunho on June 22nd, 2014 09:18 am (UTC)
Hi, I'm your no 1 fan from Sweden (although I just found your journal yesterday...) :P I read Cold war, and I'm not that good with words so I can't really describe all the things I felt reading it, but it's just so beautiful, I love it!!! The way you write is amazing, and I would be so happy if I was able to read some of your other works. Please add me back? ^^
you look so fine.leelamii on June 22nd, 2014 07:45 pm (UTC)
I will obviously desire access in the future when the story is complete. ;3
nAt Lo on June 23rd, 2014 10:58 am (UTC)
friend request
hi, i have been waiting for so long to read chap 8.please oh please accept my request.
crimson_ocean13roham18 on June 23rd, 2014 05:03 pm (UTC)
hello :) just find your journal and Iwanted to read WB is it possible for you to add me back ? thank you
(Anonymous) on June 28th, 2014 07:56 am (UTC)
Oh my... i would like very much to read your stories if you would let me...
I will add you and hopefully you would add me back and I will not say bad things about others work, including yours ^^

If any, I will appreciate any writers works and even when I don't agree with how a story was written, it is not my place to bash I simply stopped reading it. As many other has said this, don't like, don't read, no bash...
uw1m4uw1m4 on June 28th, 2014 08:00 am (UTC)
can i read chapter 8 please?

(i was the one commented and sent it and realized too late that i haven't log in to my account... my comment probably got screened)

I have added you sometime ago but haven't got your respond back. I hope I am going to be allowed access.. thanks
miracle13_flwrmiracle13_flwr on June 29th, 2014 07:26 am (UTC)
Hello ! I have just read your fanfic Cold war and was so impressed!! love the way you write! I can feel the emotions, the mood so as I am feeling all by muself

and wish Yunjae were so really happy together now.

I am from Russia and in love with DBSK/JYJ and Yunjae / WOuld be so happy to be added in your friend list and read your other stories

Edited at 2014-06-29 07:28 am (UTC)
:)beyondjae on June 29th, 2014 07:54 am (UTC)
Hello ;~~~; I'm one of those who wants to read Winter Blossom so I hope you can add me back;;
qaeliaqaelia on June 29th, 2014 10:45 am (UTC)

I came across Cold War by chance and I really enjoyed reading the story. I hope you add me back for the opportunity of reading your other stories as well :)
alcyonyesterdayalcyonyesterday on July 7th, 2014 10:05 pm (UTC)
I've liked your work and followed you for some time and I liked how you didn't just write comfortable things but went after darker issues too. And I want to know how Winter Blossom ends. I'm sorry for being a silent reader up 'til now. Could you please friend me? I don't post, so I'd be a dull friend, but please?
러사: JS!pouttvxqlover84 on September 4th, 2014 12:40 am (UTC)
I am so sorry to read this. I have been so out of the fandom that I don't even know what everyone is doing now.
I love your writing and I am sorry to read that some small-minded people have to act so childish to ruin everything.
I hope that at some point you decide to come back.
Take care of yourself.
phinea2009phinea2009 on September 19th, 2014 05:30 am (UTC)
I guess some readers find it hard to separate fact from fiction so don't let negativity get to you. From what I have read so far, you have things under control.

I hope to be able to read the locked chapters so I'm requesting to be added as a friend. I'll add you first.
BrainExpertloyersyeraomar on September 20th, 2014 03:09 pm (UTC)
author-shii fighting! just never ever listen to those who know nothing about writing ff! i love your work! author-shii fighting! STICK IT TO THE MAN! you'r awesome author-shii!
tapzztapzz on October 7th, 2014 05:39 pm (UTC)
Ahh that's why i am wondering why i cant access any of ur stories...
I am very sad to see that it is happening to u..i mean seriously what the fuck is wrong with these ppl??? Cant they differentiate between reality and fiction??..everyone has the right to write what they want ..its not like by doing this u r offending anyone..why cant they understand this simple thing??
Anyways we are always with u dear...whatever u think is right u do it..we will forever support u..
But i hope that u will change ur mind..till then STAY STRONG BABE..BLESS U..:)
Sheva E.kpopxgirl on October 24th, 2014 02:00 pm (UTC)
:( saw someone searching for your fic and I am curious and intetested to read it. Too bad you are on hiatus and f-locked your LJ. I am happy if you still write as you said on this post :) I hope you will add me back as your friend if you open your journal again and don't mind adding me back. I really wish to read you fics. ^^
thucdspthucdsp on October 26th, 2014 04:23 am (UTC)
I'll be sad if I couldn't see you around any more....love the way you write ,love your story,but...yeah if youthink your decision is the best for you what can I say,...I'll miss you ,hope to see you come back one day...
jaeparadise_22: pic#123454892jaeparadise_22 on September 27th, 2015 11:07 am (UTC)
I am very much interesred to read the winter blossom. I do hope I can read the chapters and the remaining chapters..
jaeparadise_22jaeparadise_22 on September 30th, 2015 09:40 am (UTC)

Only few has the courage to touch dark themes on their stories and I commend you for being one. I hope one day you'll get back and continue your stories. :)

nancy_boy_88nancy_boy_88 on April 24th, 2016 08:17 pm (UTC)
Hello! I hope you are doing fine
Im writing you to ask about one of your fics: winter blossom
I was very intrigued by the direction of this particular fic to the point i read and re-read it again, so I just wanted to know if you planned on continue it